Fire Walk With Me

Reflections on the Aries Full Moon on October 1st, consequently also stationed in Mars during its Retrograde: Aries is, in so many ways, a Warrior Goddess. Her reactionary tendencies can be that of a wounded wild animal, a victim ready to attack.

It’s important to look at how we define Anger outside of mere defensiveness. Is Anger doomed to live in a realm of resentment, a perpetual pursuit of protection, or can it possibly harbor wisdom that resonates with compassion, even when unwilling to compromise boundaries? During the Harvest Moon, there were many discussions about Aries energies as it relates to Mars, Fire, War. Upon deeper inspection, we came to discover that Chiron, the Wounded Healer, also has the Ram staying as its guest. 

For those of us who have felt attacked, especially in family ties or romantic relationships, trauma’s stronghold can temporarily define us, if not create a long-term chain. Americans who are deeply frightened of the fascist regime (that has been in power for the past 4 years and is a looming threat for 4 more) acutely feel the ways in which our private relationships with abuse and narcissism are triggered daily through the news. We are currently walking “in the Darkness of the Future-Past”, unsure of where history may repeat, unable to take a breather from the perpetuating victimization brought forth in our everyday reactions. 

Victimization as an identity is difficult, and though we are not to blame for our trauma, we are responsible for our Healing. Without denying the reality of our experience, this recent Full Moon has brought to light the ways in which resentment can be like swallowing a pill and hoping for our own abusers to die, killing us instead. In grave timing, we hope to build a bright hot fire to burn through our self-doubt and free us (as much as possible) from the struggles we have cycled through, without delusion or denial, moving forward to create a better path. 

Oftentimes, reactionary behavior says more about what we have suffered through, or how we truly view and criticize others, than it does about the other party. Projections of primal perspective informed by insecurity can be tamed through pause. Learning to be soft is just as strong as the perceived picture of destruction and death the Warrior can bring. Dealing with the Demons inside of us is a battle of the heart. So we do not become what has hurt us in the Past, we must wade through the negative self-beliefs that only serve to sever us from the Joy of true human understanding.

Still from Hausu


What with the news all year and the upcoming election, in order to stay reality-aware and well-read, it’s been ideal to embrace fun and fluff when it comes to films. Some favorites of the Scary Season happen to also be goofy girly movies, brimming with ghouls galore and bitchy witches. Childhood favorites are quick pick-me-ups, like Hocus Pocus (whose sequel is in production for 2021) and Anjelica Huston in Addams Family and The Witches (whose remake trailer is now available, the cast including Octavia Spencer). Teen cult classics like The Craft also received a reboot:  the 2020 sequel will be available to stream on October 28. Nostalgia comes in troves regarding women finding their power through the occult. Glamour camp like Death Becomes Her, the lite-feminist single mom coven of Witches of Eastwick, sisterly love of Practical Magic. B-movie babes like Elvira: Mistress of the Dark can lead one down a huge Halloween wormhole. 

Hausu poster

One extraordinary creepy/campy comedy for the Season comes to mind: Hausu (Criterion Collection, 1977).

A surreal and ultra-dreamy Japanese film loaded with gore, experimental edits and lots of giggles, the cast is primarily women, following a group of carefree school girls who stay in a haunted house possessed by a cat and an elderly aunt with a deceptive past. It is psychedelic, sentimental, adorable and absolutely oddball. Directed by Nobuhiko Obayashi, who passed away in April of 2020 at the age of 82, many of the ideas were said to be presented by his daughter, Chigumi, an endearing detail which explains some of the outer limit creativity of the film.

Sevdaliza’s ISON album art


Pandora’s BeatBox is the title for our first Symposium zine, due Halloween in a limited edition run. Our (first) Full Moon playlist of October (there are two!) honors the emergent energy of Dark Femme Fire. Restraint, disintegration, identity, empowerment are common themes within this visual and written collection. These sonic sirens of electronica, industrial, experimental echo some of the lust, loss, lament of the group zine’s theme. Trance-like loops are put on the highest pedestal in this musical muse, including artists like Boy Harsher, Aurut, Shygirl, Abyss X and more.

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